Last week I decided I was going to start a new blog where I could write whatever I wanted with no restrictions and this would also give me a group of loyal followers who enjoy what I write. I've now changed my mind and decided to stay where I am and keep the memories of this blog but still write about anything I want. I felt like I had to blog regularly and stick specifically to beauty and because of this I had no inspiration. I've also realised that the number of times I post is up to me and people can enjoy my blog regardless of if I post everyday or once a month. At the end of the day this is my blog and I should be myself, write whatever I want and just enjoy it. If people don't like the things I blog about then that's their choice and they're more then welcome to unfollow me.
I think part of the reason behind stepping down from beauty blogging is that i've become a little bit less materialistic. I recently sorted out all the makeup I have and I feel like I have enough and I should appreciate what I have rather than buy any more. I thought I wanted the Urban Decay Naked Palette but do I really need it? No, because I have the Sleek Storm Palette which has similar colours as well as some other Urban Decay shadows which would create the same effect. Another thing is that once you're wearing a product people don't know where it's from and that's one of the reasons why I own so little high end make-up. My foundation is Maybelline but people aren't going to look at me in the street and know that are they? They might think i'm wearing MAC or maybe Natural Collection but for me make-up is how you wear it, not what the name is on the packaging. I'm not saying I hate high end brands because I don't; there are a few key staples that are probably worth every penny but if I can buy something that carries the same effect for a lot cheaper then I will.
My interests are changing and this is something i'm accepting and really enjoying. I'm now reading more fashion blogs than I did before and i'm finding that post after post of the same beauty product review just isn't appealing. I've lost a bit of weight and that's given me the confidence to feel like I can wear more of what I want to rather than hiding behind jeans and a faded t-shirt which has definitely influenced what I want to write about. I won't be blogging much about fashion simply because I don't have the money to spend lots on clothes but i'll probably write a bit about the things that are on my wishlist as we can all dream! I suppose I see the community as a bit of a jigsaw and we all fit into it in our own ways. Where I was once firmly in the beauty side of things I now feel like i'm connected to fashion, life and food blogs just as much and I want this to be reflected in what i'm writing.
I also feel like another reason behind my lack of inspiration was that I was taking my blog too seriously. I'm really passionate about writing and I don't think I could ever completely stop blogging. I think about my blog a lot more than i'd like to think I do and this is something I want to change. This year is a big year for me; I have my A-Level exams and i'll hopefully be starting uni in September. I want to prioritise my work for 6th Form and for my blog to come second. My blog is important but I can't risk doing badly in my exams and messing up my future can I? I think what i'm trying to say is i'm putting my foot down and getting my priorities right. I've been blogging for 2 years now and I feel like it's time for beauty blogging to take a back seat and allow me to write about other things. I'm not sure if i've really shown it in my other posts but i'm also really passionate about food, music and just blogging about life in general. If I think back over the past few months the posts i've honestly loved writing are my Sunday ones. I read back through a few of them before I wrote this and the memories they brought back were really special. I want that feeling when I read through my whole blog and I want it to be something I can look back and reflect on through everything i've experienced. I already have lots of posts i'd like to write and I think with a little bit of luck I can turn this blog into a true representation of me.
If you've read this far then thank you! I love the support from everyone in this community and without it I would have made the wrong decision about the future of this blog. I'm not normally the kind of blogger to pour my heart out into a blog post but I think being honest about your feelings is always the right thing to do.